Feeling Frustrated

The family went on vacation yesterday so I am here alone dog and house sitting. Yesterday I started to organize Hana's closet and the guest room closet. I also washed her brand new clothes so I can start hanging them up according to size. Last night I ordered dinner online. I had cheese ravioli and fried chicken.

This morning I set my alarm to wake me up at 6:45am so I could get the dogs outside by 7am to do their business. Then I fed them breakfast and took them on a walk. Ralphy was so excited to go on Ws (as the owners call it). I didn't enjoy the experience as much as I had hoped. The dogs had to sniff everything and mark every tree (why are there so many trees?) and neighbors were out walking their dogs as well. Ralphy is mean to other dogs. He barks at them all like he's the alpha dog. Dude, you are a pug! Ralphy pooped three times during our walk and Chloe once. I had doggy bags ready to use but it was difficult keeping the dogs still long enough to pick it all up.

Then I decided to try going to church. I was going to try last week but I got the stomach flu. So I put the dogs in their cage, gave them a treat, and got into Jeff's car. He has the same silly GPS system in his car as Angie's but his is touch screen. Still, I couldn't get the system to let me enter the house number of the church, only the street name. Hence, I'm driving blind and the GPS is telling me to get onto the freeway which I know is wrong. I can't figure out how to turn the GPS off so I keep yelling at it to shut up instead. Finally, I gave up and went home.

I'm frustrated with Phoenix. I can't get a handle on directions. We live in downtown Phoenix in a neighborhood with one way streets and partial round-a-bouts. Everyone parks on the street in our neighborhood. The one day Angie and I were going to ride the light rail (similar to SLC Trax) there was a shooting downtown so the light rail wouldn't go where we needed to go. I tried walking to the movie theater once last week but I passed so many sketchy people that I turned around and went home.

I am so nervous for summer to come because of the heat. It's already in the high 80s now. I can't even take relief in the pool because it's shaded by the trees and house so much that it is freezing cold. There are bees outside my casita everytime I go in and out I worry about them stinging me. We have this monster of a bee that's been buzzing around lately. I think it's a honey bee. Scary looking thing!

I just don't feel like I can make this place my home. I miss my friends in Utah. I miss how easy it was for me to know my way around there. I miss my Suzuki. Such a compact, dependable car!

I am under no obligation to stay except that I bought a plane ticket to visit Omaha in late May. The nanny agency is ready to help me find a new family if I choose to leave. I love being with Hana again. She and Angie are the only friends I have here.