Lately I have been feeling sad like someone has died. It's like this aura of death is wrapped around me.
There have been contributing factors. Actor Robin Williams died a couple of weeks ago. I have always admired him. When I was a teenager and a radio host asked the audience who we would pick to be our celebrity parents, I chose Mariah Carey as my mom (this pre Honey song/Glitter) and Robin Williams as my dad. I watched Dead Poet Society right after he died and it made me cry. Still, this was before I started feeling this way this week.
Second factor: I have been watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer series for a few weeks and I recently watched the episode where Buffy's mom died. It was sudden and done very realistically. Buffy comes home to find her mom dead on the couch with her eyes open. She had survived a brain tumor only to succumb to a blood clot or something. I teared up for this. Who wouldn't?
Third factor: An elderly lady from my home ward in Omaha pass away recently. I found out through facebook. I used to call her Grandma Wilcox. She was a kind woman who always had a hug and a smile to share. I hadn't seen her since college when I was home for the summer. I found a picture of us and posted it on her obituary commentary page.
Then this morning I received a scary phone call from my sister, Katie. She told me that last night, Colten almost died! He was being watched by his dad, Brad and his grandma. While Brad was putting Brayden down, Grandma was watching Colten. He became tired so Grandma put him down on her bed. He likes to sleep on his tummy. Shortly after falling asleep, Grandma checked on him and he was pale white with dried blood on his nose. She rushed him to Brad who called 911. Katie was called and she rushed home from work. EMTs were working on him when she got there. Colten was rushed to the hospital.
Colten is doing a lot better. The color has returned to his face. So far all of the tests have come back clear. He's still at the hospital but should be released soon. She's supposed to let me know when he is clear to go home.
Question: Is this all hormonal or an I intuitive? Did I sense that something bad was going to happen or was I just grieving over current losses?
I've had a similar experience, feeling that death was somehow going to be involved in my life in the near future. Usually I felt like I was going to die, but then nothing ever came of it and no one died anytime after I had the feeling. However, a week or so before my nephew died, my sister-in-law had a feeling that something terrible was going to happen, so I guess it really could be hormones or intuition. That's interesting. Hopefully it isn't depressing you. Did they find out what happened to Colten? Was it just because he'd been put to sleep on his stomach?
ReplyDeleteNothing has been determined yet. He's going to stay in the hospital for a few days and do more tests.
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